beaten and bruised

I think my take on uncertainty is slowly transforming...
I talked to Emily this week, and if you have read her blog, she dissects her feelings of uncertainty and the unknown very beautifully

And I have just been chewing on it the past few days. on uncertainty.

I dont even like music really, but sometimes the Lord just really speaks to me through music. and it always makes me smile, because he is just so creative. He uses the most distinct means of speaking to people, means that we dont always go looking for Him in. And it's so beautiful.

Today has been really chilled-out for me, and just rich in time in the Word and in P&W with my Ipod. It was SUCH a beautiful, peaceful day with him. Just me and Him. no distractions.

And I put on some music that my small group leader from Waco, Sarah Rogers, composed. I have listened to this album like a million times. It's probably the most played music on my Ipod, outside of my Casting Crowns album. So I have heard these lyrics so many times. But they just stuck out to me in a whole new way. I posted some lyrics below:

Broken vile, poured out at my lover's feet
No pride or self-protection, just beaten and bruised
You're the only certainty my heart knows
All others are a drop in the bucket of unclarity and sorrow

I think somewhere inside, I knew it would end up this way
My heart was held captive to yours
My ear pierced through the home of my master
I'm a bondservant who has nowhere else to go

I've ventured to the countryside
But the vineyards never came in bloom
I made my home in the wilderness, but I'm coming out
Leaning on my Beloved

Beaten and bruised

Love is as strong as death, and I have tasted both
My heart has been made gold through its fire
And the waters that have stormed against me could never wash it away

And the storms made me an oak,
Full of tender leaves, with little rust

I will not harden my heart
I will break it over, and over, and over again
At the feet of the one who was broken for me
He receives the pieces and distributes them for His own glory

Beaten and bruised, I keep good company
Beaten and bruised, this is the only choice for me
Beaten and bruised, I'll know my love all the more
For faithful are the wounds of a friend,
And I will spend my life, at the feet of this one

In this war, I've found my peace
In this war within myself, I have found my peace...Jesus
Just drawing nearer to Him, and just trusting Him that He is in control
And not knowing what's going to happen with my life, with my future, with anything

Just knowing that He knows
and being OK with that
And just drawing nearer to Him in my uncertainty